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welcome to my lurk!
in this page I will focus on
my utau Sasato Nero!!!!!!
hes a CV only voice bank (VP: me)
heres a slight demo :)
holy matsudappoiyo stamp
page
FISH!!
dope love it
How's things over your way? Your character drawings are awesome!
Bookmarked cause your UTAU is very interesting!
G'day! I just finished a spree of making stamps, and I thought they suited your theme! Hope you like my sharkies!
thank you so much for all the messages!!!! i love those stamps too and ill be using sooommmeee ehehehehe, ill put up an update soon!!!! too many stuff happened idk where to start...!
ur utau sounds sooo GOOD!!! Stamps 4 u!
thank you!!!!! and thank you for the stamppiieeesssss
Heyo! It's been a while, so I thought I'd message and ask how you're going?
thx for checking in!! it seriously could've been better LOL > <; getting busy these days bc of family issues, and ive been really mentally drained... im trying to stay productive but,, cant promise anyting..!
!!blocking lurks i come across who are under age!!
!!if you were happened to be 18- while i requested you, please deny req and block me too!!
!!no hard feelings, ty!!
stamps i made...
4-24 i think i should start an update log on reworking my VB...
on 4-21 i recorded new AIUEO sounds.. my plan is to splice prefixes with aiueo bc i cant seem to hold my note very well... i wanted an more robotic feel to him anyways so i hope this will world out well, as for why im writing this late... i was just busy,, with other stuff... i also want to give myself a deadline with this project, 5-31, my birthday. i got curious on when i made him initially and found out that he was made on 5-31 too! so why not force myself to also finish 2.0 on the same date,, i think it would be fun!...
as of right now enjoy this doodle that i did of him
5-12 instead of working on him, i make a new cover...
finished tweaking the mix just now and im currently collaborating with a friend for the MV, its turning out good i would say
6-16 so much happened idk where to begin > <;;
time sure passes fast huh... lets see, what happened...
on may 20th-ish i caught a software problem on my computer... that made me stressed out very very bad to a point i stopped functioning properly...! im fine now but it really bummed me down, bc i had 2 projects i really looked forward to work on :(.
may 31st was my birthday! i didnt really celebrate much myself but i had great friends who wished my HBD from all around the world! im really grateful that i have such amazing friends that cares about me!!
june 7th-ish i got a call from a family member that i had to do some business that ill keep private... but right on the day that i was heading back home, i helped out a foreigner... and he asked me to be his translator for his business trip and i agreed...! but it was so out of the blue and plan-less, he kind of threw me in a loop... im finally back home now after a long week of none planned outing. translation jobs seems like my fate after all but being honest, i kinda dont like that guy lol!! he still owes me 270 yuan road fee, and doesnt seem to plan to pay me for the last half day.. its whatever tho! i like helping people out and this was a "great" experience of "having an agreement before rolling out into business". ive learned my lesson.
and yes i also have blackmail on that guy. i took a photo of his passport and recorded our conversations. do not fuck with me Mr. F, this was an UNpleasant trip with you.
7-16 its july now... that means its artfight season!!
im not the most serious fighter out there but i still like to draw people's oc from time to time
so far ive done 5 attacks! i still need to do 2 revenges but ive been heavily distracted by other stuffs..
my first sidequest was making an animation meme... (check animated works!)
second was something irl... lets hope i get to draw for the rest of the month..!
7-29 things are going south...
it has been really draining these couple of days and its gonna get worse, our family is suffering from medical financial issues and cant keep living at the institute anymore, and ill have to be the one whos moving everything. without getting into detail, all i can say is that person and I does not have a good history together, i dont want to do any of this... but all i can do is to grit my teeth and wait till it pass. its really killing my motivation on everything, its AWFUL!!
8-17 worst scenario has happened.
on 8-8 8pm, i got a call saying that my mom had a high fever, and 2 hours later i was in the ER with her trying to get her fever down... w/o going in too much, she had a seizure, stroke, and liver kidney failuer on the first 2 days, her blood circulation was also very unstable that the doctors said she was in risk of her blood vessel bursting in her brain causing her death. she has calmed down since then, shes responsive to commands and her blood circulation has become more normal... this news isnt even good for me, i have deep resentment towards her. long story that i dont want to touch, all i wish is that shed leave me alone
9-12 she passed away
on Sep 1st ~11:45am GMT+8 my mom passed away, she struggled on oxygen for 25 days. all that seriousness id say that her death was very much expected, the moment she got sick i knew that i lost her, and gave up on trying to save her ever since when i heard the news. this might come off as heartless to strangers online but all im gonna say is... that's a form of relief for her. she has been suffering from parkinson's disease for well over 10 years at this point, she probably had the worst 25 days of her life on the oxygen, now that her body isnt restraining her im sure shes much more comfortable this way. im ok so far, very tone deaf about my own situation, mostly because out family expected her death. after works were not the smoothest but smooth in a way that my family member who had to fly back home finished all the paper works before the flight back. i had a weird relationship with my mom. she ruined my future with her illness and gave me immense amount of trauma on everything, i feel nothing mostly because ive already felt like ive lost my mom long time ago, its really weird hearing people say so many nice things about her in her funeral, and i couldnt say anything bc theyd excuse her because of her illness. i fucking hated it, it felt like as if her illness can excuse this trauma she left behind that i cant overcome, im not allowed to have emotions because she "wasnt herself when she said those words", just tell me to kill myself. all of my moms friends whos only now reaching out is annoying me too. no one would care if i didnt tell them their friend died, ive been alone by myself for this long, i dont "need anything", im use to being alone by myself. im more overwhelmed by anger than the supposed sadness that i should be appropriately feeling. ill still go for a free meal i guess.. :/